Wednesday, September 20, 2006

A Crush but it's not mutual...

You have no clue how true that statement is.
First off is this your observation or do you think the world has a crush on you? I'm not trying to be mean some people have enough confidence for every person in this world, nothing wrong with that. Either way it's a mistake love. I like you that's fair enough. I would even say I like you a lot. But a crush now that's something entirely different.
Here's my definition of crush maybe I'm mistaken. A crush is when you like someone more than anyone else. When you think about marrying them or being in a relationship with them. I don't recall ever expressing that I wanted that from you. Crush is writing someone's last name with yours over and over. Crush is so juvenile. I'm not that desperately "in love" with you. Don't call it a crush. Lame...
I like you okay fine I will admit that I like you. I will completely give you that. Do I want to be in a relationship with you. No, nothing more than friendship which I have clearly expressed time and again. Now granted when I first met you I may have had a "crush" but that quickly was crushed as they often are. I know that you and I are never going to happen I know that I'm not that delusional believe me. First off I want to be with someone who wants to be with me and Besides you're not what I want out of a relationship and you're not what I want out of life. I want so much more than you can give. Another point you already have someone in your life like that. All I want is your friendship. I'm sorry if I lead you to believe there was more to it than that. I like you but it doesn't mean I have a crush. I care but it doesn't mean I'm writing Mrs.(your last name) all over everything. I've kissed you but it doesn't mean I'm hearing wedding bells. I stare but it doesn't mean I'm choosing our kids last names. I know all you can offer is friendship and I know that, that is something I want. You're not dealing with a middle schooler here. I can be grown up about somethings and this is one of those times.
I don't have a crush, I'm not a booty call, I don't want to be your girlfriend, I don't want to marry you, I'm not in love with you, I don't want to have your babies, I don't write I heart you everywhere. Please don't make me out to be some poor pathetic girl who is in love with a boy who doesn't feel the same way to complete strangers and please tell your friends to stop IMing me telling me you have a girlfriend. It's so lame... Not every girl you encounter is after you that way. I'm not trying to hook line and sink you. I'm not trying to take you away from her. I'm not trying to be your girlfriend. Just friend.
All I want is to be your friend here's my definition of friend. People who hang out together. People who talk. People who care for each other more than strangers but not as much as people in relationships. People who are there for each other. People who call or text just to ask how your day was. People who laugh together. People who make things easier. People who love unconditionally. People who are there when you're sad. People who are there when you're happy. People who take nothing from each other. People who give everything. People to talk to when you feel your worst. People you talk to when you feel your best. People you can talk to about anything. People you can tell your secrets. People who keep your secrets. Friends are connections to this world that make you feel less alone that make you feel more alive and that make you feel loved.

I like you, I love you and I'm your friend end of story. . .xx

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