This song...

I heard it recently for the first time. It really got to me. Honestly it had me crying for an hour or so and if I heard it now I'd cry. It's so fascinating how words and music can make you feel so much emotion. How it feels like someone out there completely feels the way you do. How it makes you feel less alone. I suppose I'd be selfish to think my feelings were mind alone, that no one else felt like I did. Turns out I have pretty universal feelings and it makes me feel so small. I love how I feel when a song touches me. I love to cry I love to relate I love to feel less alone. No I've never met this band but somehow it feels like they are telling a part of my story and when I hear the man sing I swear to God he's singing to me. I like that. Especially considering the bullshit I've been going through lately. It's odd had I heard the song a few weeks ago I would have thought oh it's pretty but I wouldn't have felt like I feel. It's strange how I just hear this song now of all times. hmmm... I love life and everything it throws at me. the good... the bad... It doesn't matter because I'm not the only one who ever felt this way. I can smile knowing I'm really not alone... I never have been... it was selfish of me to think so...
So I also got another job offer. I'm torn though I don't know what to do. Main reason my buddy Jesus you know her. I don't know if I can leave her. I've really come to depend on her this past year. Yes that may end up hurting me in the end because she isn't going to live here forever but I'm not ready to give her up just yet. I know that if I take this job I'll never see her. I like to think I'm good for her too. She seems different since I met her. I'm different too. She's the truest friend I've ever had and though this other job would be better for my sanity and I know I would actually enjoy it, I don't know if I can do it. I really don't know what to do. I'm torn... Sigh... I've got until say Monday to decide. With this job I could have a normal life... But what is normal anyways... I could go back to school... I miss it...Sigh. I'll sleep on it. I have to talk to Jesus before I decide for sure. She always knows the right thing to do. What's best. Jesus is truly wise beyond my years (even though she's a couple months younger) I love that girl she makes me smile she makes me feel loved she makes me feel important and cared for. I can't leave her... She's my best friend... I'll talk more about it later...
good morning for you goodnight for me sweetdreams...xx
I never said but in case you're wondering... Hinder "Lips of an Angel"