Keep pushing my buttons...

I think I'm going to back away from him. I feel like I'm being watched and it's completely unjustified. Why can't a man and a woman just be friends. I really don't get it. I need to back away before I really give them something to talk about. So the brief friendship was nice. It's not over but it's going to change...
So let me talk about this dream it was pretty freaking cool. We (Beth, amber, Ru and I) went to this huge ass wal-mart (of all places) I mean massive like the biggest one ever created. We went inside and as soon as we did the lights went out. We figured hey we'd go ahead and get the stuff we needed anyways so we went our separate ways. After a while Beth met me back up front (not sure what happened to amber) but we decided to get some huge water guns. We opened them and filled them with water then pulled the fire alarm so everyone would go outside and we'd have the store to ourselves. At first we were going to leave him there we even got in the car to leave but we didn't so we go back inside and hunt him down. lol but it's still dark and he's sneaky so we can't find him (doesn't help he's in signature black either) this dream was funny I actually woke up laughing it was nice. So we're still hunting for him and some how we end up on the roof and it's night out so it's still dark. But he's out there and he has a water gun too. (how cool would that be, water gun fight in a wal-mart with all the lights out. That would be the coolest thing ever. I'm going to buy a wal-mart oneday and shut it down like on Halloween night and have a huge water fight. geeze that would be cool.) I can't remember much more of the dream except it started to rain which defeated the whole purpose and we played in the rain (with clothes on this time)(haha remember that night)(my god it was awesome I wish I could have a do over)
It's strange to dream about people I really know (especially him).
You're more free in your dreams. You do things you might not normally do in your dreams. You have no inhibitions nothing holding you back. Sometimes I think he lives a dream I wish I could be that way. Unlimited Free. maybe he'll teach me how... Maybe I'll figure it out on my own.
Karaoke was good it's really starting to feel routine so I'm thinking about not going for a while. We left at midnight and went to wal-mart. I know why I went. Scandalous... I saw him he was sick I hope he feels better (this is the other he) I realized last night he cares about me. Which is another reason I'm backing off. I'll explain later. When it's easier.
so yeah nothing else going on at the moment. Be safe...xx
I know i said if they keep pushing me I'd act on it. lord knows the feelings are there. but I would never. I couldn't do it. so they can keep talking. I'll keep walking with my head high because I know I haven't done anything worth talking about in the first place. and I won't...