The plot thickens...
I've heard the expression a million times but it is a small world. Funny story... It turns out that J.L.H. is married to one of my moms good friends daughter. I know her mother very well you might say and knew she had a daughter with the same name but it didn't click until today that she is in fact her daughter. He's married to her daughter. This town is entirely too fucking small for comfort.
My suspicions about her kids being by different men are true. I nearly died when I found out who she was. I've met her many, many times and I swear to God it didn't click until today. Now if I find out the woman is cheating it's so on.
Honestly I hope she's not but the past often repeats itself. If they have an open relationship fine whatever it's not my business but he makes it out like they don't. I really feel like it would crush him. I don't want to break up the marriage by any means. I just want him to be happy like I've said before. He just doesn't seem happy and I hate seeing him that way. It breaks my little heart seeing him I don't know in pain and distant. I want him to be as happy as anyone can be not necessarily with me because lord knows I'm not even close to being ready to "settle down" I'm only 20 kiddies but I want him to be happy with someone who loves him and that he loves. I don't know. I wish I could take everyone's pain sometimes... I think I've been through enough that I could handle it. Maybe I'm giving myself too much credit but my hearts in the right place. My hearts in the right place with this whole situation in general.
Why do some people feed off misery? Do they truly like to be unhappy? Do they like to torture themselves daily? I don't get it but I would still trade places with them for their sakes.
I'm babbling I'm tired so yeah I need to get out of this town. I'm planning a break. You're invited even if it's just a say three day road trip I need to get away...
oh yeah before I go I've also composed a list to make it easier to talk about guys I've been talking about recently so like with everything in life I've given them numbers. Here's the order. (yes it's in rank order)
0.(I can start with zero it's my list) "soulmate"
1. stranger (this one's you love)
2. J_ _ _S A.
3. J.L.H.
4. Jesus I just made the list and I can't remember number four. hmmm. Guess I haven't met him yet or he really wasn't as important as I thought. Guess I could scoot number five up. Nay I'll leave an open spot. Next guy who strikes my interest automatically starts in fourth position. Go him. Honestly I don't know how long it's going to take to meet a forth. Guy are ... Home ... I'll talk about guys later that's not what this is about.
5. C.M.
so yeah from now on I'm talking about guys in numbers. Helps me keep it sorta secret a couple of them it's best that I do keep secret for their protection and mine (giggle)(geeze am I really laughing gleefully about my "relations" or lack there of, with a married man. Oh yeah and one's with girlfriends.)(eh... Damn the man keeping us down)
well Goodnight all you communist hippies who hate freedom and shoes... hehe. Tonight's the last night I work I'm glad I need a day or three off. Be good babycakes...xx
oh yeah bow chicka bow yow...
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