One more thing...

I've had a lovely shower and a little time to think and there was some more I wanted to add before I went to bed.
I'm a flirt. It's a natural personality trait half the time I don't even realize I'm doing it. I can understand how this might be misinterpreted as something more than it is but let me tell you now it's not. I flirt on a daily basis and not just with men that I find attractive, all men. My flirting however is harmless 99% of the time. Now here's where it may get rocky. He is also a flirt. He gets it honest his dad is one of the biggest flirts I know. But J.L.H. and I both know that it is completely harmless. Now granted any on looker may read into it more than there is but here's where the it's none of their fucking business card comes into play. If I were married to a natural flirt I think it would be completely unfair to tell him not to flirt. I would trust him completely. So what he flirts with other girls at the end of the night he's going home with me. I'm not that jealous, granted there are more than one type of flirting and the one we are doing is the one that I think should be totally acceptable. It's harmless. It's cute it's funny it makes he and I smile but at the end of the day it leads to no where. Sigh... Why do things have to be so complicated? I'm not going to stop flirting and talking to him just because a few people are running their enormous mouths. I really have grown attached to him and consider him a good friend. He's awesome so fuck what they say. Seriously fuck what they say. I seriously don't hope I lose a friendship I've just gained over this senseless petty bull shit. I wish I could talk to his wife honestly. Just clear some things up. I want her to know I'm not after her man. I'm not. I don't want to take him away from her. I wouldn't even if I did want to. It's not who I am. I'm not like that. I'm not a selfish person. I wouldn't hurt someone just to get what I want. I just wish I could tell her, I'm really not after him. Sigh... If I see her anytime soon I want to try and talk to her. See her point of view on the situation. I don't want her to have trust issues and be upset over me. I'm not worth it especially since *I'm not even after him that way* hmmm... Yeah I'm going to bed now for real this time. Talk to you laters love...xx