So let's continue...

With the I'm unattractive emo phase shall we?
If you know me chances are you don't not many people do but if you know me you know that I don't think I'm attractive. At all. This isn't some shallow selfish way of fishing for compliments this is how I really feel.
So we went to buffingtons last night and here's beth's argument that I'm "gorgeous" I had like several men come up to me and hit on me. I mean several but here's my argument they were drinking and some were drunk a drunk man telling you you're beautiful is like a deaf person telling you, you have an amazing voice. They have booze filters. Now do I ordinarily get compliments such as this in everyday life? No, no I don't. So Beth would argue drinking makes you brave and that's why they come up to me at the bar. Apparently I can be intimidating. But still they're drinking key word. I can't stand drunks and none of those guys were worth my time. You know that's kind of self absorbed and arrogant maybe they were worth my time but them drinking makes them unattractive not drinking but being drunk. I like it every once in a while but these were guys I see every Tuesday nights.
sigh... I wish the moon would change I'm in an awful mood really down on myself lately. I know some reasons but a lot of it is unjustified depression. I've got to get out of this mood and get back to being me... Help me...