New Focus...

My xanga is getting all the attention for the big issues. If you're interested...
So had three days off now it's back to work. I shouldn't complain about having to work only 4 days a week so I won't.
Life is...Interesting. Atleast lately. Never a dull moment since Beth came into my life. I'm thankful though because I thrive off of drama. I love how Beth and I can just sit back and laugh at people. Case in point...
Size appropriate cars... (hehe I shouldn't be laughing I'm no skinny myself but woh) Picture this if you will a large okay maybe large isn't the word an extremely large woman in a tiny again not the word in a uber tiny BMW convertible. Now I in no means am one to make fun of people but here's what I though. You just spent 30 thousand or more on a car you should atleast be able to enjoy it comfortably. I'm not sure how the woman got in the car unless she had the top down which is sad. Very sad and I didn't mean to laugh. Okay I did mean to laugh it was one of the funniest things I've seen. Does she really think she's cute? Come on... We laughed for atleast 30 minutes I know and everytime I see a small car such as a Miata I laugh out loud.

Life is so beautiful the good and the tragically bad. There's beauty in everything. I learned that recently from someone who will remain nameless. Sometimes you have to laugh though. Laughter is beautiful in itself. I wasn't maliciously laughing at this woman but it did make me smile and I thank her for that moment. haha. So *click click* you been put into memory.

If beauty is in the eye of the beholder and I find beauty in everything then why can't I see it in myself. I'm changing my outlook as of today. I am beautiful, not hott, but beautiful. I'm am an indescribable beauty. There is beauty in my imperfections just like there is beauty in yours. I love imperfections so I'm going to learn to love mine and through me other people will love them as well. If I can just get past things and let my guard down. I'm so guarded but like I said I'm working on it... I am the way I am and you're either going to like it or not. I'm not working to please people anymore. From now on as long as I'm happy with who I am and what I look like I could care less what people who don't mean shit to me think. A big F U to those who can't appreciate the beauty in everything.

Everyone be safe...xx