Debit or Credit doesn't compare to Mountains and Man Made Stars...

It's something about the way you laugh
it makes me feel like a Child
aspects of life they confuse me
you and your thesis amuse me
after an afternoon with you

So we just got back from Tennessee late last night. And though I may be fired for this much needed road trip I don't care. Lamarjorie has been having issues and she needed to see her family. I hope she knows I would do anything for her including lose my job. She is worth more than the world to me and I know had I been in the same position she would have taken me anywhere I needed to go as well. Jobs come and go but our friendship is endless. I truly believe that. She is an amazing girl and I hate to see her sad. She deserves every happiness in this world. She is someone who is constantly looking out for other people and I felt like she needed looking out for. So I did. And should I be fired it was totally worth it.
This trip has made me realize how small I am in this big world and how my little world and issues I'm having mean nothing. These issues are small and can be resolved. There's is a whole beautiful world out there and I'm not seeing nearly enough of it and that is my new issue. We drove straight through the mountains and I don't know how you can look at something so much bigger than yourself and not feel like there is something out there bigger than we can grasp. There is a God I know there is and though sometimes I question him I believe he knows what he's doing in the end. This world is beautiful it's breathtaking it's so much bigger than my little world and I am in love with it. I could have died yesterday content with life. It was that amazing. I felt that at peace and I needed it as much as Beth.
We went out to drive back through Atlanta and let me tell you while not as peaceful as the mountains Atlanta is just as impressive. Atlanta is full of man made mountains and man made stars and I love is as I've said before. I love the millions of tail lights creating a red river and white river through the night. I love the buildings that make me feel so small. I love the power and energy I feel there it's indescribable. I love feeling like there is more out there than me. I love feeling like my dreams are within reach and that I am going to be something in this world. I had forgotten that along the way lately but now I know. I will be something so much greater than I am at this moment. I will be somebody. I know it, I feel it.
And as if Atlanta wasn't the icing on the cake there was the storm. Beautiful displays of fireworks no one but God can imitate. And rain that fell like curtains on a stage. The lightning lit up the sky again and again and my heart raced everytime. It was breathing taking.
I will remember the past two days when I feel like giving up. I know this isn't all there is now. There's so much more than this blackhole town of broken dreams and college drop outs there is so, so much more and I plan to see all of it...xx