You were never enough

and you never will be....

And I'm okay with that now. I'm okay with the fact that you will never be what I wanted or desperately needed. Even now when you have a chance to change our relationship you won't because you don't want to and I'm okay with that. I'm okay with you walking out. I'm okay with you pretending like you cared. I'm okay with you lying sweetly. I'm okay with your fake smile. I'm okay with the fact that you chose something/someone over me. I'm okay with feeling abandoned. I'm okay with being jaded. I'm okay with the fake smile I carry on. You taught me well. I'm okay seeing you like that. I'm okay seeing you miserable. (insert smile). I'm okay with the bed you've made and clearly chosen. I'm okay feeling not good enough. I'm okay being tainted. I'm okay being compromised. I'm okay feeling broken. I'm okay feeling lost. I'm okay with the pain I feel every time I look at you. I'm okay with the eye contact I give that you don't deserve. I okay knowing that I am the fool in this situation. I'm okay with the rumors. I'm okay with the whispers. I'm okay with the stares. I'm okay with the scars. I'm okay making more. I'm okay with the promises you didn't make. I'm okay with the promises you broke. I'm okay when I'm crying. I'm okay when I see you. I'm okay on the inside. I'm okay on the out. I'm okay feeling caged. I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay. I'M so O-FUCKING-KAY I could scream...xx