To you...

I thought I should explain myself for last night...
I wanted to come and hang out more than anything and had the obligations of the following morning been the only factor I would have.
I think you are one of the truest hearts I've known and I would have loved nothing more than to talk to you about everything. But you are unattainable as anything but friends which I know without you saying. Which is fine... But I know me and I know... That this is going to sound extremely dumb and a I can't believe I'm putting this out there and I'm going to regret it later. You know what I said about you, and you said how can I feel that way only knowing a fraction of you? I just can't word this right. I'll save this thought for later...
It's not you, things in my past have just made me very guarded. I have trust issues as well if you knew me you'd know that. Again it has nothing to do with you. I just have to undo a past of people letting me down.
I would however like to offer you, today only... A lifetime friendship for now. I hope you take this offer because I don't offer it to many. Should you choose to get to know me I know you won't regret it.
I hope your offer wasn't the last time you offer. I just have issues working against me and my past at my feet.
If you can ever manage to sneak away or you have need. My door is ALWAYS opened to you.
I'm glad to have finally met you... And I hope this is a true friendship that last.
Once again I think you're an amazing guy from last night and from what I've heard. I hope we can hang out soon... I am, after all, obligated to you. I'll keep my word.
So if your intentions are true, when you're back in millegedville look me up. So that we can not only have some amazing conversation but so I can kick your ass at guitar hero as well.
Have a safe trip... And return home just as safe.
Even if last night was the only time I talk to you. It was nice and I thank you for your time. I hope that you are as great as I think you are. I hate to be proved wrong.
I hope we talk many, many more times... xx Brittnee ~my door is open I hope this is the start of an unbreakable friendship... If not it was nice for a moment...