A silent exchange of names and hearts...

Head over heals for the one you love...
I'm not in love and I don't think I ever have been. No I know I've never been. 20 and never been in love I don't know whether this is good or bad. Sometimes I think it would be nice to be in love but what if my idea of love is different from how love truly is. What if I'm just in love with the idea of being in love? I couldn't bare to be disappointed not about this. I think my life would lose a lot of it's purpose if I found out my idea of love was wrong. I would be crushed but then again maybe I could focus on other areas of my life and give them the attention I've been giving to the idea of a thing called love. If love is so great why does it cause so much pain. I understand you have to take the good with the bad but what if love is a lost cause?
I can't believe that. I won't. I know love is everything good and bad. Love is amazing love is real love is out there. I just don't know how many people find true love. And the false love that people call love is giving the real love a bad name. Love is out there people just need to wait for it instead of rushing into false promises and broken vows.
so I say to you love...
I'm still waiting. I'll wait until I die. I know you're real and I know you're out there. I haven't lost faith in you. xx