Random... may not make sense

Afraid to lose control of my inhibitions
and just be in the breathe of your existence
cover me, see me free
from this mundane world of broken hopes and dreams
make me realize what I was missing
before your light
take me in
and make me whole
I never knew I wasn't the one in control
you hold the key to my sanity
you bought my soul
you're the only true love I've known
so my love make me feel like home
by ~me


So... the family drama continues. Yes, I am moving in August, I suppose. (Into a house with my cousin if you haven't heard.) My family is not happy about him moving in with me. Why you ask, because apparently they think I am influencing him to be gay. WTF WTF, how can I influence him to be gay. News flash guys he's gay. GAY, and I'm not the one who made him that way. I don't know who did or if anyone made him that way. Maybe he was born that way regardless I didn't say,"hey, Joseph why don't you try out being gay. Yeah I think you'll like sleeping with boys you should try it." Just because I choose to accept him the way he is doesn't mean I'm influencing him to be anything but what he is. GAY. He's Gay. I wish they'd just stop the denial act and accept him the way he is, the good, and the bad. Though I choose to believe that him being gay is not bad. I'm not asking you to agree. I'm asking you to accept him with an open mind and an open heart. He's family for God's sake and so am I. So stop treating me like the black sheep because no matter how hard you push me away I will never push him away. He's like my brother and he is perfect the way he is and I would never want him to change for anyone. He has to be true to himself and I could never turn my back on anyone who was being true to themselves especially not my family. We're family. I just don't think you guys get that. You're so concerned about your precious name and what people might think. Who gives a damn what people think? I don't, he doesn't, so why should you? Grow up this isn't middle school.

eh... They hate me. I love them so much we used to be so close. Now we're like strangers. everytime I see them it's awkward and uncomfortable and we have nothing to say. Now I have nothing else to say except this if being myself and accepting people for who they are gives you cause to persecute me (in your eyes) then so be it. Be miserable trying to control people. It won't work on me. I've been through too much to be brought down by this bullshit. I may cry but it's not because you hurt me, it's because of the sorrow I feel because of your closed mindedness. How dare you judge when you live in glass houses. Karma is on your heels. I'm waiting...

P.S. my nanny found out about my tattoo, though I wasn't trying to hide it. I'm sure she thinks I'm a whore that's going to hell. I got the tattoo for my grandpa who's like my father not because I'm a trashy whore and I like it thank you. And how can I be a whore if I've never slept with anyone. EVER. And how can I go to hell if I'm not even sure it exist? Also if there is a hell... I'd be worried if I were you. Real worried... xx (p.p.s yes please I think I'll have another. I'm addicted.)