Secret 38:I'm Emo

Though apparently it's not a secret to anyone but me or so I'm told. Anyways I also think I'm mildly bi-polar which seems to go hand in hand with me being emo and further proves the point. I'm in a much better mood today because I've started a healthy diet. (not a starving myself diet) and so far I've stuck with it for two days now (which may not seem like a lot but it's the little steps) I'm going to start walking after I get off work if I don't join a gym (or can't afford it) it's hard living on your own. I'm sure a lot of you know that. Anyways so I thought I would write down some motivations to go back to when I feel like giving up. It's pretty much in the order it's written.
1. Being Healthy
2. I promised myself an I-pod if I get down to a weight I like.
3. To make him do double take (among other things totally innocent I promise)
4. For my own shallow reasons. (which everyone has I'm just the one admitting I have them too many to write down)
5. So I can start dancing again (I used to take ballet up until I was about 12.) dance is something I have a passion for and I miss being comfortable doing it.
6. So I can have the confidence to get up in front of people and sing
7. So I can look uber skinny girls in the face and laugh (because they've probably been skinny all their lives and never had a problem with weight and I actually earned my body and worked for it) I guess that could have gone in selfish shallow reasons but eh?
That's more than enough motivation. So wish me luck because I'm finally taking the actions needed to be fit and healthy and it's going to happen. The right way. I feel rejuvenate and the next few months though difficult are going to be worth it in the end. XO