Life is Crazy...

I'm stressed way beyond my limits now. How do I know you maybe asking. I've started smoking I've stopped eating and I sleep all the time when I'm not working. I'm so tired of this bullshit and the company that I work for. I know I've been saying I've got to find another job for months now but I think I've finally had enough. There's just so far you can push someone and if things don't change soon, I'm giving up. I'm so tired of shady people and I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm tired of working my ass off to make people in higher places look good when they're not offering any help. (because we're short on people) grrr I just want to scream. oneday oneday I'll be free oneday I'll sleep like a normal person and have a normal job. or atleast a job I somewhat like. this job didn't start out bad it's just gotten that way over the past few months. I don't know what to do. sigh... I just don't know if I'm strong enough to put up with this bs much longer. I swear if I didn't have bills it would already be over and I'd be happy again. I'm starting to question why I moved out in the first place. I want to be a grown up but it's not what it's cracked up to be and moving out on your own isn't a joyride either. anyways atleast tonights my friday and I'm off the next two days. XO