A post to B.A.S.

hey kid,
How's it been? How's your life? I just want to say... I miss you. I miss talking to you everyday. I miss hearing you play guitar and sing. I miss the sweet kid you were. I miss your laugh most. What happened? When did we stop talking? You know I don't know if I ever told you this but I think I would have married you. I feel like we grew up together and it hurts not having you there when I need you. I feel like I had you for so long. You were always there when I was going through hell and now that things are going good for me you're gone. I wanted you to be there for the bad and good. Where are you? Where are you? GodDamnIt I want to hear your voice so bad I could SCREAM. I know we have different lives now but I wanted you to be in my life.
You are the most amazing guy I've ever had the pleasure of knowing and one of the reasons I'm not in a relationship now is because no one can live up to or replace the hole you've left. You made my life better. Maybe you feel like I don't need you anymore it's true I don't need you but I want you. I want you in my life. I want to be friends like we were when we were in middle school and highschool. I LOVE YOU. I still love you so much more than I ever thought I could. I still love you as much as I loved you then. My heart hasn't changed. I still consider you one of the best friends I have or will ever have.
The girl who gets you better not take you for granted or I swear to God I'll kill her myself. You deserve every happiness this world can provide. I wish you success happiness and love beyond what you think you deserve because you are more than worth it. I'm going to find you oneday and tell you to your face. I'm going to tell you everything I wanted to say but couldn't. Just wait and see. I just hope my timing is right.
I love you... It's taken me a few years but it's easier to say. I love you... XO bRiTtNee