I'm probably the only one laughing and the more I think about it the less funny it is. Um so there was this guy a million years ago or it seems like a million that I sort of "dated." It's a terribly long story so I'll give you the readers digest version. I met the guy on the net his dad lived in milledgeville so at first I was like not interested. I mean for all I knew he was some stalker weirdo I had no clue who the guy was anyways turns out he's really persistent and we eventually get to where we're talking hours everyday and eventually we meet in person. I personally think he's adorable. This awesome punk skater boy emo before emo existed. I'll admit it now I think I might have been in love with him. I mean I was only in the 10th grade and he was a freshman in college and I was scared so I did the whole let's just be friends. Even though I thought he was amazing and I sort of cut off contact with him because I was so scared. What was I thinking? I don't know but I was only in the 10th grade and clearly couldn't rationalize how great he was. I remember I sent my sister to give him a white rose because I broke a date with him. I was such an idiot when I was a teenager. Sooo.
I found him just tonight on myspace turns out he's still in milledgeville and married just married in Feb. And wow I don't know what to say the poor kid has just let himself go. He doesn't even look like the same kid. I mean yeah you grow up but woh. I wouldn't have recognized him if they didn't have the same name. So I guess now it's finally time to stop wondering what could have been. I mean I still love him in a way but I love a boy that no longer exist. It's strange to love someone that isn't real anymore. He's not that kid anymore. I'm not the kid I was either. It's brought a little closer I guess but it makes me think maybe I've ran into him somewhere and not even known it was him. I emailed him to say hey I don't know if I should have or not but at one time he was a big part of my life and that part has been missing and now it's gone forever. Wow that's a lot to take in. I'm just at a lose for words now so.... That's all for now. I miss that kid though. goodnight XO (I lied to you and you can't have anything based on lies... I knew that so that's why I ended it like I did and I'm sorry if I hurt you or... I'm just sorry. this is my goodbye to you goodbye to who you were I know you're not that person anymore and goodbye to what we had. I've moved on but I took some of you with me and now I'm letting you go. <3>
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