I've never been so alone and I've... never been so alive...

will the drama ever come to an end... I'm tired... contrary to popular belief I don't like drama... some drama is fun... constant drama is draining... I need an emotional nap as emo ghey as that sounds... I get tired of feeling... and then there are times when I don't feel at all... I wish there was some sort of balance... I think I prefer not feeling at all... what does that say about me?